100 Days ~ Couldn't be Better

I am in the TOP OF THE CLASS! I don't have the results from the CT scan or the full body PET scan yet, but the doctors do not beleive that there is going to be any concerns. Praise God, Amen.


It has been a hard few weeks since I last posted. I have attend some support groups that have not been that helpful. In fact, AJ told me that I could not go to those groups any more! I found that most people that are not in "good" shape go to these meetings...at least the ones I have attended. Their stories have brought me down a little. Their stories are so different than mine. I have had such amazing results from each step of this illness! When stories are traded, I begin to doubt how well I have done, and then I start waiting for the "other shoe" to drop so to speak. it puts me in a funk, and AJ doesn't like that!


Dr. Dice has been awesome, and extremely supportive about how well I have responded to all of the protocal treatments, but I still wasn't feelling it. But after racing down the hall way, waving my glasses at Dr. Lemaistre like a crazy person yelling, "don't get on that elevator yet... I need some sort of closure!" He told me something that I finally understood about MY results. While he nor Dr. Dice, could not give me a time limit on my life....(because after visiting the support group, I was starting to think that I was looking at a timeline of 5 years).........OK, I can do that but I want to live my life differently if I am leaving this earth in 5 years.... Yes, CALL ME CRAZY! I was going crazy.


Dice and Lemaistre, both told me that I should do that anyway....a BUS could get me tomorrow! Here is what the doctors could tell me...I am at the top 10% of the group of bone marrow transplant patient (which means there is not a trace of myeloma cells any where...verse other that have slight traces of the myeloma cells still); that means statistically I am 5 years good! The people that fall under 10% may fall out or remission sooner than me. Dr. Lemaistre also told me that on the horizon is incrediable stuff for multi-myeloma, and that they are at the point of "entertaining" a CURE for MM. So I am going to take Dr. Dice and Lemaistre advice...let go of this and LIVE LIFE! Although, I kind of hate to miss the next support group, the guest speaker is speaking on "CANCER and SEXUALITY!"


Matthew 6:33-34 Seek first the kingdom of the Lord....but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therfore, DO NOT worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Isn't it wonderful how God just takes our daily WORRY away! He just lets us know that "trouble" comes every day and and we just don't need to worry about all of that. Praise the Lord for taking care of us! Amen!

I am thinking I will post monthly at this point after each of the doctor's appointment. At this point we are discussing "maintainence" meds.....I'll be back to you with that. Love to all!