Still in the Hospital

Yesterday was a fun day....if you have to be in the hospital. Keli spent the night and Pam brought up lunch from HEB Alon. Yummy! The three of us had a wonderful afternoon. Kate, James' wife. dropped by also with a portable DVD and Danille Steele moives that I had at home and haven't watch....just literary trash. I love it! Actually, I think Kate came the day before. My days are just mixed up here.

LeMaistre came in around 10 and told us more about the infection. It is what he thought and he was hoping that with a little more blood...I might could get out of here late that afternoon. What he was looking for specifically was a higher count, .5, of GRAM # (nephils (sp) or something like that. Thank goodness Keli was here because I couldn't remember anything he said. Keli told me basically a white blood cell starts as a mono-something cell, the next thing to grow in the cell is nephils and those are what fiight infections. I need a lot of those...........we all do. Anyway my count was only up to .1 yesterday afternoon so I didn't leave. The nurse did tell me that they started exit papers for me to leave today, but we will see. Honestly, I am not feeling that great, but my low feeling could be just from being in the hospital for 5 days. LeMaistre is fairly sure the infection is coming from my port. I think also, because last night I began to feel soreness in that area. It isn't red or hot, just very tender. LeMaister will check my WBC and hopefully the antibiotic they have been giving me 12 to 15 hours of the day though IV will have served its' purpose and he can let me go home with an oral antibiotic for 10 more days, then check the blood again. The infection should be gone. If not the port has to go. And I did find out they will not replace it at that time. The area needs time to heal, and LeMaistre isn't sure that I will need it anymore! That is good news, so pray that whenever they decided to take the port out, it is the right timing so that I DO NOT need to have it replaced! Amen.

Anyway back to the fun part. I don't think I have mentioned that my hair is almost gone. Well if you were to see me, with a head band, front view, you might think........"hey, she has lots of hair still," but my back looks like a new born's head, you know they way the rub they hair off the back of their heads? Well, that's me. And top of head view is very thinning. I am so ready to shave me head! Hair is just every where, but I am wait to do it at home tonight. James does his own hair styling, and it is pretty much the style I am looking for ....I think they call it a razor cut 1/8 of an inch! Lovely, right!

I haven't bought any hair things yet, although I have gone wig shopping (that's a trip!) So Keli went and suprised me with serveral scarves and helped me learn different ties. I just couldn't resist the photo! I personally don't think it's so bad considering none of us have make up on, and my skin is peeling like I had some expesive chemical peel (a reaction to a drug)......nice! Pam looks like Mrs. Berry! I look riduclous, and Keli looks way to young to have a scarf tied around her head for that. God blessed me with her, all of the scarves are so cute, and have fun metallic thread running through them and some of them have jingle jangles on them. I think I will be wearing mostly scarves and caps at lease for the summer. I just think a wig is going to be TOO HOT!

I love you all, and will write later today tell you what the doctor has to say today. Also, I am not receiving guest at the hospital or at home, and NO FLOWERS. For right now, just my immediate family and Pam, but when I can see people and go OUT again, you will be the first to know!

I ususally end with a scripture that pertains to my daily feelings, but to day I am going to give a excerpt from a poem that I found on line; "Words from the Well" http://www.peggiesplace.com/well0.htm Copyright 1996 by Peggie C. Bohanon. Springfield, MO 65803. All rights reserved.

It is a long poetic prayer, so I just am giving your parts that fit for me and my trial. God bless you all.

...It's night, O Lord, be swift to hear;
To bring relief for falling tears.
Needless pain, don't let it be;
But healing pain, to set me free.

...I'll take the hurt; I'll take the strife;
In Hands so strong I'll hold your life.
I'll fill the well with heaven's gain,
When you, My child, give Me the pain.

...O, night, give way to endless day!
I've found His depths, His highest way!
O, night, give way to morning's dew;
The well is deep; the source is You!